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Sep. 10th, 2007 | 07:32 pm
location: living room
mood: sick sick
music: Akon-Ganster Bop

School is good I guess when I'm actually there! I'm so sick right now but lets not talk about that! This semester I have Sociology and Ahl and Multimedia and free block! And I have a friend in every course which is good! Samantha is in AHL and Multimedia with me and Shelly is on my Free and in Soc. with me! So dad comes home the 17th with Bubba which will bea good time sept for I have to leave that weekend to go see rihanna and akon with my baby! Speaking of which hes good altho he and kathleen are close which for some reason doesn't scare me as much....\\ anyways I g2g peace out

<3: sexy little vapmire panda girl

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Aug. 24th, 2007 | 11:24 pm
location: Living Room
mood: amused amused
music: The rain on the window

I just wanna randomly write:

All she can do is run. From what she doesn't know. All she knows is she has to get out she has to get away. So she grabs he panda. The only one there she knows will listens and runs to thier secret spot to cry. Up the little hill at the very top she looks to the left and sees thier spot. She jumps across the ditch and walks over to where he use to sit when he was aloud to be with her. She lays There with her panda and tells him everything. Then she feels much better.

I don't know...oh janice was over last night we have so many memories now check out her newest entry for the dirty details (not litterally baby cakes) lol. I wanna speak french so i'm just gonna write in french or try to anyways.

Donc Davie est premi d'alle chez moi ce lundi soir! Je suis tres excite! J'ai beaucoup de planee pour lui! Muhahaha! J'aller a la ...comment vous dit..."Fair" avec Janice mon Mere et laura. Puis apres ca je pense que Janice va domir chez moi encore! Donc ca va faire le temp passe plus vit! Je spare!

Enough french for one night...yea i might as well translate that for something to do...So davie is aloud to come to my house monday  night! I am so excited! I have lots of plans for him! Muhahahah! I'm going to the...how do you say...fair with Janice my mother and laura. After that I think janice is gonna sleep over again. So it wil make the time go faster...I hope!

Anyways thats enought for tonight! Nighty Night Everyone!


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Weird Dreams

Aug. 23rd, 2007 | 12:33 pm
location: Living Room
mood: awake awake
music: The Price is Right

Ok so I have been Really upset lately because David wasn't suppose to be able to see me until ike school started but now his parents are saying by next thursday and his dad says next tuesday so we are both pretty confused! I keep having these weird dreams about david...like i had one where he was fuckin his ex girlfriend and then last night i had one about him smokin pot and they scare me even tho I trust david with these things....anyways I was suppose to go to brittany's today but mom decided to fuck off and go on a little adventure this morning so I don't know if I will be able to. 

Oh last night me and David had like 3 kitties and they had kittens they were so cute then I came in and he was smokin pot..."you don't mind do u babe"....what kinda question is that! I don't know I probally won't tell dave about that one and since he never reads my stuff he'll never know!

Also I need a smoke like crazy and I can't find moms!!! AHHH. I might have a little get togeather on Sunday! Anyone who wants to come lemme know! Probally just the girl but if the guys wanna come (kevan) lol Feel free! But only like 10-15 people so...ummm Oh 

I went school shopping yesterday! FUN FUN...I got 2 pairs of new jeans and like 4 binders and folders and paper and pens and pencils lol oh god i'm bored...

Anyways I think thats all for now!!!

<3: S.L.P.G.

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Today I am...

Aug. 14th, 2007 | 08:03 pm
location: @ Davids
mood: drained drained
music: None

Well lets start out with last night and how much pain I was in. Pain like I was never in before!! I almost cryed! Zomg its just like Aaron said! God shes so smart! My poor poor panda! Thats what me and david call my stomach! Panda coz of my Tattoo

So when my belly rumbles hes all like awww panda is talking to me. And When my stomach hurts i'm all like aww my panda hurts baby! Its a bonding thing for sure! Anyways Lewis is down and so I have to watch and play video games until he goes home but i'm not complaining i'd hav to do that anyways I guess!! So Lewis was suppose to sleep with david last night but it was thundering and lightinging so he slept with mom instead. I dunno if i'll be able to sleep in this house all night without david but i'm gonna have to try I guess. DEATH DEATH DEATH!!! I hate when Brittany is right...she knows what I mean!

<3: Amee Dawn Homans

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zomg today!!

Aug. 11th, 2007 | 11:46 pm
location: My Oasis
mood: wondering wondering
music: None

Today was so fun...not depressing at all...we went to porters lake this morning and then janice came down after that...what did we so we did too much and laughed so hard at my uncle and me and it was so great. So tomorrow I go to Davids Maybe IDK it depends really! I'll pprobally end up going but idk its just dumb i guess! 

xo byes

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Aug. 9th, 2007 | 08:19 pm
location: Living Room
mood: non-existant non-existant
music: Talking

oh life...hmmm i was at davids for a long time and now i'm alone at my house...until sunday which wouldn't be so bad except david is going to Walton which i guess is like a party place and i'm so scared but no one cares! Well I know he doesn't...well he tries to calm my fears but w/e i know hes gonna fuck up this weekend but hes pickin me up sunday when he gets home if hes not too hung over which is my theory! But he says he wo't be so i trust him....other then that we went to sherbrook village today...funess!!! but yeah i'm mentally dead so talk to y'all later!

<3 : Amers

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Real Deep Story

Jul. 19th, 2007 | 12:47 am
location: Living Room
mood: artistic artistic
music: Complete Silence

shes sitting in here living room, at her desk, waiting for an idea to hit her.
She is longing to be creative but doesn't have the feelings anymore.
She looks at the window, she sees teh reflection of the chair in it.
The rain drops float down the window like a skater on glass.
Smooth and graceful. She looks up and see's a wreath.
Nothing special about that, pink and blue flowers, some green leaves,
so pink leaves...nothing special. She looks to the right, pictures on the wall.
Surrounding a blue clock. There are 2 of her, 3 cousins, 2 siblings and a grandmother.
She still can't get any inspiration....DING!! IDEA!!

In a perfect world I would be....

I would be a princess
waiting in a tower way up high 
waiting for a prince to come
and save me from myself

I would be a super star 
singing on the great big stage
with all eyes on me 
I'd never be...lonely

But I'll never be a princess
And I'll never be a super star
So don't wait for that and take your time
And Be proud...of who you are 

That came out good its a song!!! I wanna write some more but about what? Hmmm maybe i'll write a story...

                                           She was more then that

Dear Diary...I'm doing it...I'm saying good-bye

         She slammed the diary onto the floor and walked across the empty hallway into her bathroom. She slowly picked up the razor, put it to her wrist and closed her eyes. Then she just stood there, knowing she didn't have the guts to do it. Why was she letting him do this to her. 

        She was more then beautiful, with her long brown hair and honey colored eyes and just a few freckles on each cheek. 

       She had just turned 16 the year before and was axious to go to her best friends New Years Party. She met him there, And ever since her life had been miserable. It was her best friends Boyfriend but it wasn't hard to tell he had a thing for her. 
      They talked for the next 4 months and then when she told him she had a boyfriend he stopped calling her. She was devestated and dumped her boyfriend even though he ment the world to her. Before she knew it she was 17 and it was christmas break. He came to her house, The pain is too much to describe. He didn't call again after that for a month. Again she cried her self to sleep at night trying not to care. And when the pain seemed to be dissapearing  he called again but it was only a booty call and she didn't like that. But she did it anyways believing he actually had a thing for her.

   She walked out of the bathroom and back into her room. There had to be an easier way to do this and then she thought of it. Pills. She ran into her mothers room and grabbed every kind of pill she could find. 

   They found her, in her bed, holding a stuffed panda bear tightly in her arms with a smile across her lips and a note that reads: He wasn't so great... look what he did to me.


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Jul. 18th, 2007 | 01:09 am
mood: passy-outty passy-outty
music: Complete Silence

Its 112 and So I just had the scares dream ever...well one that bothers me anyways....So its my wedding night and david is plastered and i run out crying. I go up stairs to are hotel room where I pack my things and put my bags in the car. Then I go back into the reseption to find david laying on the ground passed out. I take off his necklace and put my wedding ring on it with a note that says "you'll miss me". Then I woke up!! Totally Crazy I know!!

Anyways  the last couple of weeks have been...something...so much has happened I might as well talk a little while im up! I'm half scared to go back to sleep. If I do I'll have another dumb dream so I will just stay up.

Me and David are spending lots of time togeather and getting really close...which is grreat but when hes not here...thats a different Story! I'm depressed and sad...scared and insecure...everything I was before and I hate it. 

I was suposse to be going to alberta the next couple of weeks. But David got really upset when I told him so I decided not to go. Its not like he controls me but I just don't want to see him upset because of me. I want him to be happy.

Me and Kim went to town today and he boyfriends cousin wouldn't stop flirting wit me and hes totally dumb. So I told him I was engaged (which I practically am) and he was like i'm sorry i'm sorry...I was like thats right my fiance can kick you ass lmao on the plus side Jacky and Justin were there?

Anyways I'm pretty sure I should go to bed now i'm feeling quite passy outty! not good but I will try to keep you more updated on my current events!! 

<3: No One Special

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Jul. 12th, 2007 | 01:05 am
location: HELL
mood: pissed pissed
music: Mom Yelling

Ummm i've come to the conclusion that i'm not ment to be happy! Life is pretty much a piss off. I wish the past would go away and leave me alone. I won't let him ruin my relationship with David. So I'm gonna let david talk to him. MOM is so rude I hate her I hate life I hate EVERYTHING! My own fuckin mother....

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Too Much To Say

Jul. 4th, 2007 | 11:54 pm
location: My Room
mood: I Feel Nothing I Feel Nothing
music: Televison

Oh God so much to say...Me and David spent like 10 days togeatther andd it was amazing. We went to prom and to the movies and just spent time togeather. Prom night was so amazing...we went to the dance thingy and I totally met so many of Davids friends! And I totally fucked up that night but so did he...I will get to that later! So anyways we went to Koles after the dance and I met like Justin and Jacky. Justin is so Openly gay and Jacky is really cool. This is where I fucked up...I was way too flirty with Jacky and I took it too far...Baby I'm so Sorry....But he fucked up too by Over Drinking and he just fucked up but not as bad as I did....Yeah so he went home on Sunday and then...? Oh me and kim were in town togeather and went to the dollar store and bought so many beach tops for like kids and cap guns and shit and then just hung at the beach! That was wiked then tonight we watch Charrlotts Web...I cryed :'(. Tomorrow I'm going Shopping with Uncle and Friday I'm going to Davids for are 2 months aversary lol YEP YEP

<3 Sexy Little Panda Girl

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